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"The intensity of devotion
and concentration should be like Sita concentrating on Lord Rama while
she was kidnapped and held prisoner."
Ans : I had spiritual inclinations
right from childhood, and as a younger person I took to meditation and
was also searching for a guru. My father was an especially pious person
and was a disciple of a certain order, and as a result I was brought up
in a very pure and harmonious environment. I was from a small village
in Orissa (state in southerneastern India), and there were not many worldly
influences you might say. Some people were drinking and smoking and such
things, but I was not much interested in that. I found that when I was
approached by kama and krodha (desire and anger), I could concentrate
on my inner self and these things would vanish.
My practice is based on a sort of kundalini yoga practice that centers
the concentration on the sound of OM in the naval. There are four ways
to, in a sense, get to that sound by going from grosser to more subtle
levels of practice. One can speak the sound aloud softly or murmur the
sound, watch the sound in the breath, concentrate the mind totally on
the sound, and finally to become the sound oneself so that it goes on
without the feeling you are doing it. It is like going to school and progressing
through the years of education from First Standard up to college; one
learns more and more advanced things as one goes along.
I left home in 1982 and moved around to different places,
staying in caves and so on. I was told by someone to go to the Divine
Life Society branch in Orissa; up until that time I had not known there
was such a place. When I left home I had told my father that I was leaving
to lead a sannyas life, so that was always at the back of my mind. But
before becoming a sannyas, there are many conditions, such as being in
the spiritual life a certain number of years and that in most cases one
must be over the age of 40 before one is granted permission. Even if I
had not fully formally become a sannyas in the earlier years, I had done
so in spirit.
My practice of concentrating and meditating on my breathing
takes up to six hours each day. Sometimes the spirit comes on me to practice
while I am doing my duties, but generally I do it three hours in the early
morning and three hours in the evening. Meditation is with the eyes half-open,
like Lord Buddha or Lord Siva; I concentrate on a point a foot or so ahead
of me, but the mind stays inside, at the feet of the Lord. If you keep
up this practice for six months, the Lord will speak to you. That can
happen in a few ways, depending on the level of attainment. The intensity
of devotion and concentration should be like Sita concentrating on Lord
Rama while she was kidnapped and held prisoner by the demons, only then
will one truly have success in one's practice.
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